Random Acts of Silence

In early 2007 I wrote quite a bit at night out of necessity.It was cheap therapy but in my diluted state I often didnt get past a line or two with any one subject. While reviewing my Moleskine recently I found a few I wanted to put together and share them.So here it go!Enjoy!

The pain and torture of self affliction bites at the soul like an addiction.You know me yet still you toll me? Infinite deflection of my hearts wrenchin.Your wisdom only cost you a sixty second earache.I've paid a lifetime of gut wrenching heartbreak.Friend,slave,victim,perpetrator.Emotion exploding then re-loading.On my way back to the dirt my feet were rarely even touching.

Misdirection is a direct reflection of my slurred speech and poor inflection.Abuse? Yeah that's fuckin obvious,but I can't find my tools to put a stop to this!My lack of focus is ridiculous.Brought to you LIVE from dust,I've fed on the lust,My souls love came from addiction and mistrust.

Housin Lames on the Regular

Linguistically it's trickery
I house you inexplicably
Your whack ass style
ain't shit ya see?
Watch me real close son
I'm bout to demonstrate
I'm holdin classes at South campus
......Don't be late
Poppin shots in your stale game
LAME
 it's all the same
Ask your girl who she's feelin
Her eyes will scream you my name
When I finally get to writin you
so called MCs get frightened
But if you can just focus a bit
You'll leave enlightened
Brighten up your game
like bleach and T shirts
Try to keep up now
Kuz draggin ya might hurt
Just a Whiteboy
From South Omaha,Nebraska
Everyone relax
its just me flyin past ya
In your ear buzzin like a tank of  nitrous hits
Have you passin out
like a fuckin Oxy trip
If the heat come round
you ain't seen me in a bit
I won't repeat it again
Don't let me hear you're talkin shit

South Side Boys - Single and Hating It

...continues from.

The next thing that would significantly change my life would almost take me down, my divorce. My kids were very young and I already felt like had missed the sweetest years of their lives. The thought of being weekend daddy was horrifying but instead of taking this as an opportunity to step up and finally make some positive changes. I of course latch onto the things that played a big hand in my divorce, drugs and alcohol. Shortly after I was told to move out I let my lawn care company dissolve into nothing and spiraled in and out of control for years. I left quite a mess in my wake. I'd only known one way of dealing with pain and I took full advantage of it. The whispers from the street were starting to show me her true colors and I couldn't bear the truth. She was a lying f@cking whore; I just knew we'd be together forever, the South Side streets and me.

Even with what I knew, hustle and party time check whores check blow check let's roll boys.

To be continued...